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A time for new beginnings
January 2013
Aurora whisperwind
Tue, Jan. 22nd, 2013 04:07 pm

Disclaimer: I neither hate nor like Orihime. I have nothing especially against her. Sometimes I feel sorry for her, but I'm indifferent at best, and anyway this is ONLY MY OPINION. I'm perfectly aware that I may be completely wrong, but this is the way I interpreted the manga.

Disclaimer 2: As English is not my first language, please excuse my grammatical errors.

When Bleach started off, I got hooked almost instantly. As it was not my first Shounen Jump series, I was on alert for all the regular tropes and kept thinking Tatsuki was going to be one of the main characters, as she seemed the type to be. I was mightily pleased when Orihime was revealed to be the one with the powers though, it was so refreshing to see! And she was kickass for the first, and (unfortunately?) for the last time in the entire story.

Orihime starts off as a ditzy character who has a crush on Ichigo, and at first she doesn't seem to make this crush the focal point of her existence. She has other interests, friends who she talks to and she doesn't seem to mind Ichigo spending time with Rukia. She likes Rukia as well, and doesn't seem to be affected by the whether or not Rukia likes Ichigo. She even regards it geniunely as some sort of fun game and it was cute to see. It's only when things start changing suddenly, when her powers manifest, when she sees Ichigo fight the Menos Grande and when Rukia gets taken away, that the crush slowly starts taking over. In fact, in Chapter 58

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Bleach v07 ch058 pg119

Orihime is tentatively testing the possibility of NOT rescuing Rukia by stating she has friends and family there. I don't think she means that Rukia should die, she just wants to know how important this is to Ichigo. She only decides to go to SS when Ichigo wants to go. All her actions and decisions seem centred around his. Somehow, I never bought her sudden 'Go and rescue her, Kurosaki-kun', it seemed too much like a person trying to make virtue out of necessity. She clearly states that the reason she wants to go to SS is for Ichigo in Chapter 62.

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There's no mention of Rukia here, which seemed odd. Ishida does this too, but he only said that to get rid of them so he can train in peace, proved by the fact that he tried to rescue Rukia earlier despite having no reason to. Her character began to sit uncomfortably with me here at this point. I know it might show how much she loves (?) Ichigo, but I don't think so. This single-mindedness bothered me. If, supposing, he had decided not to go, she wouldn't have either.

She didn't do much protecting of Kurosaki-kun in SS, as she was separated from Ichigo most of the time, and her admiration for him only increased when she saw to what lengths he went to save Rukia. There's a sweet moment of perspicacity and understanding of Ichigo's feelings from her here. 

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Here is where she becomes markedly different from the sweet, easy-going girl she was at first into a more complex, self-deprecating sort. Personally, I think this is when those first traces of jealousy started developing in her, because she never showed any sign of them before. And the normal teenage thoughts of 'I want him to rescue me too!' might have come too, and why not? Unfortunately, Ichigo got beaten to pulp trying to do just that in the Conquistadores mini-arc and to her dismay, he fell into a depression which she couldn't handle. She kept trying to be brave and handle her injuries, but didn't get that that's the WORST possible way of cheering Ichigo up.

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And then Rukia shows up, brings back the old Ichigo effortlessly in half a minute, and poor Orihime has to resign herself to the fact that Rukia is important to Ichigo in a way she can never be. Matsumoto is really sweet in trying to console her, saying that Orihime is important to him too, but neither she (nor me, the reader) were really convinced.

Again in Chapter 214, Rukia's statement that Ichigo need not feel guilty for her injuries, and that she's not so weak, and more importantly, his acceptance of these statements is ironic- considering this is the same situation in Conquistadores, and Orihime was not able to convince him about the exact same thing. She even says the same words- well almost!

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It gets worse in Chapter 225 (Slip into My Barrier), when Ichigo is so surprised, but unemotional about her coming and is only interested in the news she brings. She's then kicked out rather cruelly, but rightfully by Urahara and is consoled by Rukia of all people. This consolation too, seems like Matsumoto's- both of them trying and only temporarily lifting Orihime's mood. But again, her resolution to fight and be strong seems rather forced, considering she positively leaps at the opportunity Ulquiorra gives her. I've never understood Inoue's actions here- does it never occur to her that HE IS THE ENEMY, and not to be trusted? A stronger character would have refused, purely based on his statement 'Aizen-sama needs your powers'. He would then have either killed her, or kidnapped her by force, both of which make better options. By agreeing, she placed herself in his power, with no real assurance of him not killing her friends anyway.

I know, I should cut her some slack- she's just a kid, frightened for her and her loved ones lives. But by actually agreeing to this, a proposition which involved the words 'Aizen-sama NEEDS your powers' she's betrayed her side. Aizen is a master at manipulating people, weak ones in particular. He didn't need her at all, except as bait, knew she would come, and so even gives her a chance to say a tragic goodbye. And she does, exactly as he thinks she would. He even shows her the Hogyoku, as a further bait to keeping her there.

The HM arc is when Inoue completely becomes this needy, dependant, I'll-shut-my-eyes-to-everything-I-don't-want-to-comprehend character. She's happy when people come to rescue her, but everything goes wrong swiftly again. She encounters Ichigo when he's beaten up and unconscious, and is terrified when she sees his mask. Her princess in a fairy tale fantasy is crushed yet again, because she's being saved alright; not by a knight in shining armour, but by someone who looks creepily like her captors themselves. She needs to be told by Nel, someone Ichigo has just met, to trust in him, which completely obliterates the oft-seen argument that 'Orihime understands Ichigo like no one else'.

She has no clue about his feelings, and doesn't seem to have any real insight of his character- she just thinks she knows him, or the person she wants him to be. She's put him on this big hero pedestal, not caring that he's the same age as her, has gone through a lot, and has far too many burdens to bear. She doesn't love him, she idolizes him. It reminded me powerfully of Lord and Lady Chiltern's conversation in the 'An Ideal Husband'

Lady Chiltern.  [Thrusting him back with outstretched hands.]  No, don’t speak!  Say nothing!  Your voice wakes terrible memories—memories of things that made me love you—memories of words that made me love you—memories that now are horrible to me.  And how I worshipped you!  You were to me something apart from common life, a thing pure, noble, honest, without stain.  The world seemed to me finer because you were in it, and goodness more real because you lived.  And now—oh, when I think that I made of a man like you my ideal! the ideal of my life!

Sir Robert Chiltern.  There was your mistake.  There was your error.  The error all women commit.  Why can’t you women love us, faults and all?  Why do you place us on monstrous pedestals?  We have all feet of clay, women as well as men; but when we men love women, we love them knowing their weaknesses, their follies, their imperfections, love them all the more, it may be, for that reason.  It is not the perfect, but the imperfect, who have need of love.  It is when we are wounded by our own hands, or by the hands of others, that love should come to cure us—else what use is love at all?  All sins, except a sin against itself, Love should forgive.  All lives, save loveless lives, true Love should pardon.  A man’s love is like that.  It is wider, larger, more human than a woman’s.  Women think that they are making ideals of men.  What they are making of us are false idols merely.  You made your false idol of me, and I had not the courage to come down, show you my wounds, tell you my weaknesses.  I was afraid that I might lose your love, as I have lost it now.  And so, last night you ruined my life for me—yes, ruined it!  What this woman asked of me was nothing compared to what she offered to me.  She offered security, peace, stability.  The sin of my youth, that I had thought was buried, rose up in front of me, hideous, horrible, with its hands at my throat.  I could have killed it for ever, sent it back into its tomb, destroyed its record, burned the one witness against me.  You prevented me.  No one but you, you know it.  And now what is there before me but public disgrace, ruin, terrible shame, the mockery of the world, a lonely dishonoured life, a lonely dishonoured death, it may be, some day?  Let women make no more ideals of men! let them not put them on alters and bow before them, or they may ruin other lives as completely as you—you whom I have so wildly loved—have ruined mine!

The infamous dome scene was the nadir of her character. There was no reason for her to go there, yet she went, only to see him dead. When things go so wrong, people either finally stand up and fight or go to pieces. Orihime is one of the rare Shounen characters who goes to pieces- I think it was brilliant of Kubo, in hindsight. It would have been too cliché for her to get a ZOMG!power up then. She needs to a lot of self introspection before she gets to be a strong, brave girl, and using that moment would have been a cop-out. According to me, she sees the world as it is, and the enormity of the situation only then. And does not even think of using her powers, as she is too weak and cowardly to.

Now I realise this, but back then, I was calling for her head  I thought the end of the HM arc, with Aizen's fall, and a few months of peace afterwards to sit and introspect might change her, but she didn't. I'd hoped we'd see her as a girl who's slightly more confident of herself and weaned off her Ichigo worship. Let her have a crush on him, love him, be his friend, whatever. Anything but placing him as the sun she orbits around. She again takes the coward's route out- pretending that nothing has ever happened, and instead upping her airhead personality to the point where she now looks positively jarring- when you see her all hyper and happy, not caring that SS is almost destroyed, her 'friends' are critically injured, and basically all shit has hit the fan.  It was bitterly disappointing to me, to see her never develop as a character at all. And then, after my dome!crazy!rage vanished slowly, it struck me that this was the way it was meant to be.

What I'm trying to say is, Orihime is not supposed to be a strong character, or even an (please don't hate me) admirable character. She is nothing more than a teenage girl, someone who's pretty, dorky, cute and has a crush on the bad boy of the school. She wouldn't be out of place in a cute Shoujo series, and no one would hate her this much. An thinking about it, why should she change? Just because all the other characters around her are so strong and brave, it doesn't mean she NEEDS to be. She's just 15 years old- I certainly was an idiot at that age. She's a little self-centred, and likes placing herself in the role of a princess of a fairy tale, without really understanding what she's doing. Sure, she keeps saying she'll get stronger and all that, but they're just words- like new years resolutions. She means them at the time, but doesn't go through with it. But is that really so very bad? She's an ordinary person, suddenly placed in life threatening situations and given powers enough to participate- if she has will and resolve enough. But will and resolve require courage, and she doesn't have enough.

I don't think it's fair to compare her to the other characters, because they're all either much older and experienced (the Shinigami) or more well trained and mentally suited to battle (Ishida). Thinking about it, only Ichigo and Chad have suddenly developed miraculous powers randomly and frankly, these two aren't ordinary kids either. And this is why I feel so sorry for her- She has powers, but either fails to get opportunities to use them, or is held back by fear when given the opportunity. She literally fails EVERY SINGLE TIME she needs to use her powers. I'm sure she's painfully aware of her shortcomings, and this silly cheerleady behaviour is just her form of denial. I'm waiting for the bubble to burst, but after the dome I'm seriously wondering if it ever will.

But for once I'm not going to care. I've made my peace with her. She is who she is, as flawed as she may be.

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Aurora whisperwind
Fri, May. 14th, 2010 03:50 pm

In three words, describe what's currently running through your mind.

Happy Sleepy Hungry.. :D

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Aurora whisperwind
Thu, Feb. 11th, 2010 07:41 pm

Do you have any bad habits that negatively impact your life? Are you trying to overcome them or have you learned to live with them? How do they affect you on a daily basis?

My bad habit would be talking too much. And talking too much with the wrong person. And occasionally causing people to fall asleep out of sheer boredom. Am I trying to overcome it? Is it affecting my social life?

-thinks for approximately 0.06 seconds-

I'm not quite sure.

-Continues to go 'blah blah blah blah'-

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Aurora whisperwind
Sun, Dec. 27th, 2009 02:46 pm

When it gets unusually cold, snowy, and/or rainy, do you prefer to remain indoors? If there's a long stretch of bad weather, do you tend to get depressed and/or stir crazy? If so, how do you cope?

Oh no.. I love this kind of weather! And I absolutely adore staying at home lazing about, so it's all okay! Weather like this is the perfect time to read a book under the covers... make some soup for yourself.. have a long chat with someone or watch something fun.


I wish I was home now...

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Aurora whisperwind
Sat, Dec. 5th, 2009 09:24 am

I'm home! I'm home! I'm home! I'm home! I'm home!

Though for a very short while... :D

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Aurora whisperwind
Fri, Nov. 6th, 2009 05:09 pm

I feel like Tatsuki right now actually. Why Tatsuki? Well let's just say that now I know how she felt when she realised that she wasn't as important as she thought she was in Orihime's or Ichigo's lives. And how far away she is from them, despite being physically present every day. As usual, not much has happened to set me off to my low mode. Oversensitive is not enough. Anyway, I feel unwanted again. Not by family, but by friends. Like there's not a single friend who I'm important to. Well, not exactly that, but not a single person who attaches as much importance to me as I do to them. I know I'm not fun enough- I know I have quiet tastes and am a damper of crazy spirits in general.

But that's the way I am. Aren't friends supposed to like you the way you are? I'm not stating they don't like me, but... this is hard to say, but I'll say it anyway. I feel that given a chance, they'd rather have somebody else's company than mine. Yes, I'm sure that I'm nice to have around- but no one would miss me so much if I wasn't around. They'll miss me, but I'm sure I'll recede to a nice memory in the past, not referred to much.

What I have a gripe about was I needed to talk about that bitch. She knew it.. she tried calling and I didn't pick.. but still. That was once and I was sleeping then. Does she think that I'm over it? That I don't need a talk and reassurance sometimes? Appu made me feel like a useless piece of trash she picked up on a sidewalk... do they think it's so easy to get over that sort of betrayal? I know why I don't need to be called... I know inside, but saying it here will make it real.

What do I do? What? Are my values and personality more important? I hate the fact that I'm not spontaneous and lively. I hate the fact that no matter how much I've hung around a person, they cannot recollect any fun they've had with me. I hate the fact that when I'm with someone, all we keep doing is wish that somebody else was there... the unspoken implication being "instead of you" And though I miss her myself, I feel angry that I can't be like her. That I'll never be as appreciated as her. If I'm resentful, I get caught immediately and laughed at or sniped at for being an annoying child. Or worse, it gets ignored. Which is probably the best way, but I feel like my feelings don't count at all.

But I can't change... It's too hard. And too late. I'm 22 effing years old for crap's sake.

BTW I got a 90% on my first exam.. it's been so long since I've had a nice result in anything.

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Aurora whisperwind
Sat, Oct. 24th, 2009 05:27 pm

Well, it's Saturday today and I've finished with classes for the day! A long Sunday ahead tomorrow for me.. Hope I would not let the room get to me. Upto now things have been so busy I haven't had time to care much at all. But soon I will have to. I miss home, really, but am keeping my head together for now. Hopefully.

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Aurora whisperwind
Sat, Oct. 17th, 2009 06:51 pm

Well, this is it. I'm leaving for Mysore to join Infy tomorrow, so... goodbye I guess. Goodbye PC, goodbye house and most of all, goodbye, family.

I'm not sure what I'm feeling... Ten days ago, I was incredibly sad, but now... I guess I'm too numb to take anymore.

Current Location: Home, probably my last post from here in a while
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Aurora whisperwind
Wed, Feb. 11th, 2009 09:52 am

Just posted my new piece and I already have 3 reviews!!! Nice reviews! ^-^ So happy!!!! Oh, and I got my offer letter from Infy. DOJ is Oct. 19...

Ten steps to an imperfect date

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Aurora whisperwind
Sun, Feb. 1st, 2009 05:29 pm

Well.. here's the continuation!

(Morning. We're back at the same road)

Ichigo: Well this is where we saw the blanks and obliterated them yesterday morning... so they must come back to the exact same spot this morning. By the way, stay close to me, Senna.

Senna: -runs away-

Ichigo: Senna??? Where are youuuuu???

Senna: Stop yelling, I'm right behind you! Although I ran away in the opposite direction. Look, there's a convenient weeping childTM so let me show off how motherly and warm I am!

Child: Can't find my dad... sob...

Senna: Your dad was with you?

Child: Yes.. That was obvious enough ne, you stupid girl? Errr... I mean.. my dad's not here.. we were going to a festival... sob...

Ichigo: Your dad's dead kid. So let me give you a soul burial and get back to what I was doing before.

(No one pays attention. New Quest: Find Tomoya's dad!!!)

(Random scenery. Melancholy music. Dad hunting is forgotten. We're doing 'fun mom, dad and kid' outing instead!)

Ichigo: What are we doing! There's no festival here. Let's just bury the kid!

Senna: No! He has a long journey ahead.. I can't bury his soul like this... sentimental dialogues!

OOC Ichigo: How sweet you are... drool...

(The festival. It randomly appeared. A touching reunion between dad and kid)

Dad: Thank you so much! By the way, everyone around you is dead. Bye bye!

(Half the people disappear. The other half is rotting)

Senna: Ahhh!!! Why is this happening? Sob!

OOC Ichigo: Senna...

(Luckily, Ukitake and the rest of the gang arrive before he drowns in OOCness)

Renji: Hand the sue over, Ichigo. It's evil will corrupt you!

Rukia: I did a crap load of research, okay. She's not a shinigami, she's a sue! Now hand her over, before it's too late!

Evil Sue Senna: But I am a Shinigami!

Renji: No you aren't. You are non-canon. Hence, Sue. And why are you in the living world if you are a Shinigami?

Senna: No.. I am.. confused.. teary.. lots of memories... -implodes-

Renji: See, she's like a boggart. Just give us the damn sue, Ichigo!

Senna: No, I say! I'm not a sue!

Ukitake: Fiiiiiine. You are the memory rosary. Which in Sueish means 'the spawn of Sauron'. Now will you come?

Senna: Nooo!

Hitsugaya: Come on, be reasonable. The valley of screams, the evil dude, alternate dimension, mass destruction... they all add up!

Senna: No... logic!!! Stay away!!! I'm.. I'm.. I'm-

OOC Ichigo: Too late! I'm already corrupted! I'll defend Senna with my life, against the one woman whose word I have always valued, her best friend and all the officers I trust!

Rukia: No! Ichigo! Are you insane?

OOC Ichigo: I don't know you! I must protect Senna!!! You are evil!

(Thankfully the villains appear for a small battle. Yay! Would've killed myself if they didn't)

(Senna is clingy and helpless. The rotting people turn into violent white things)

OOC Ichigo: Though I have the sharpest instincts in the series, I still will not notice a big fat guy behind me. Worse, I'll hold the sue in my arms and roll around with her on the ground!

(Somewhere in an alternate dimension, the real Ichigo screams in unison with Hichigo- “NO!!!! MY IMAGE!!!!”)

Fat evil guy: Hi, I'm back! And this time, I will take the rosary.

Hichigo: Please do. I can't stand the sue-ness any more.

OOC Ichigo: Oh no you won't! Attack!

(Everyone is inexplicably getting their asses kicked. Kon is batting with the white things using one hand)

Rukia: Damn it Kon, what kind of wimp-ass fighting is that? Die you white abominations!

Kon: Nee-saaaannn!!! Thank god! Save me from the sue! -glomps her-

Rukia: -is red- Get off me! You're in Ichigo's body now and I don't want you distracting me!

Senna: How dare you steal Kon from me? I'm Super-Strong too!!! I'll fight sexily and make him drool now! Ahem... Call forth the twilight, Mirokumaru!

(The inevitable white haired villain makes his appearance and K.O's her in less than a second)

Senna: Or I'll act the helpless maiden...again. Whatever works.

OOC Ichigo: From now onwards I shall start the “1001 times I will call thy name” chant... Senna!

Ukitake: Is it possible? You are the members of a noble house who were exiled for illegal cloning and mass production of sues!!!!

(The white things explode. The Evil gangTM decide to leave but are stopped by DUN DUN DUN... OOC Ichigo in all his bankai-glory! Not)

OOC Ichigo: Senna! I'm coming! (When a guy says this and raises his sword in your direction, I would be scared)

White haired villain: -stabs Fake!Ichigo with Mirokumaru. Oh the angst-


Bleeding OOC Ichigo: Okay.

(His eyes unfocus)

Audience: From that? Dear god, you're Ichigo! You're not even supposed to -blink- at a small injury like that!!

(Nonetheless, his eyes unfocus. They reach for each other.... but they don't meet. Woe is them! Instead, inexplicably, her ribbon comes off.. the token of their true love... oh angst!!!)


(The Evil gangTM vanishes)

Rukia: I really shouldn't bother, but damn... I can't help it. Ichigo!

(She catches him. Everything blacks out and reveal Inoue, Ishida and Chad who have woefully small roles)

Orihime: He's fine now. I finished healing him.

Rukia: You mean he's back to the way he was? Before the sue?

Orihime: Now that I can't guarantee.

Urahara: Hey guys, I just found out their evil planTM! They plan to use the memory rosary to make the real and spirit worlds collide.

Ishida: But how can they-

(Is cut off before he can say “formulate such an incredibly useless evil planTM which is bound to have no advantage whatsoever to them?”)

Urahara: Shut up, Ishida and stop thinking! As I was saying... there must be a coincidental entranceTM somewhere close to where the sue first appeared-

OOC Ichigo: Aha! I shalt get back my sweet Senna after all!

(Dashes off, followed by Rukia. She'll need a big hug after this is over)



Arrrghhh! I can't seem to finish this in one sitting! Will be back sometime soon with part 3...

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